vivaloka;

2010-05-28T13:54:00.003+08:00

"Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought- useless and disappointing."

I still like a cinderella's story best (:

2010-05-23T10:32:00.003+08:00

i miss you.
i miss you at my house.
i miss you accompanying me.
i miss you.

i really just do.

2008-06-24T20:03:00.001+08:00

well, if you want my new url, it's on my pm (:
byebye blogger (:

btw, im busy now (:
PSLC is taking over my world (:

2008-06-22T11:14:00.000+08:00

moving to livejournal,
bye blogger (:

2008-06-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

byebye tagboard.

and im sorry if i misjudged you.
actually, i never even judged -.-
i merely ASKED him.
this is the truth
hate me or not, hahaha
doesnt really matter.

but just know that, i never thought u were screwed up or whatever.
i swear,
or i'll get knocked down by a car.

taz.

i have half the mind to switch to lj.
heh.

2008-06-21T12:05:00.003+08:00

just deleted a very illogical post. hmm

i really like this song alot.

alot alot alot.

because this was the song that i kept looping and looping in the darkest of this year.

when everything was uncertain, even the roof above my head was uncertain.

even though this song makes me remember a person whom I don't really wanna remember at the moment,

i think the niceness of the song and the sweetness of the song overrides the bad that comes along (:

walking like a duck now.

think i overexerted my muscles on thurs!

ohwell.

byebye(:

2008-06-20T09:16:00.003+08:00

haha, finished my june camp stuff! (:
left with chinese book review and a ton of other hw which i am not really planning to finish by hols.

anyway, hurrhurr, as I listen to Secondhand Serenade's Your Call, i start to snort at the song.
one of the lines of the lyrics goes like this: "I am born to tell you I love you."
I know it's supposed to be all sweet and all
and i can't deny that my heart will be melted by the guy who says that to me and means it,
but seriously,
i think anyone who thinks that they are born for one person,
they must be really.... emotionally weak and dependent.

I've grown to know that I don't live for anyone but myself, and a few worthy people like my family (:
im sorry if i sound cynical,
but isn't it super dumb to live for just one person?
just one person of the opposite gender?

i don't deny that if i'm attached, maybe i will become super dependent on that person,
but seriously, is it really worth it?

I don't really beleive i am born just to live with another person.
Rather, i think of such love as a gift, a bonus from heaven.
I can live very happily with this love,
and I can also live without it.

everytime i see some friends around me who make love their whole world, it makes me question myself:
do i want to be like them?

i don't think i want to.
it's so highly dangerous.

why should your life, something so sacred a gift to us, to be dependent on this other external person?

maybe i'm just being arrogant, but i really don't know.
but i don't think losing one person will make another die..
i mean, when one door closes, another door opens.
it's just a matter of time.

even so, life has so many more beautiful things for us to experience.
other beautiful things like kinship, friendship, etc.

but maybe im just too fortunate now,
and therefore i'm saying all this crap.

just a random thought of mine. x)

2008-06-20T08:29:00.002+08:00

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed At the way you pulled me out of time
And hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
Who's in the middle of something
That she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
Who could ever help me
Baby won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
Who's in the middle of something
That she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
Who could ever help me
Baby won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I lead you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

im amazed (:

beautiful song (:

2008-06-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

one last cry.

2008-06-19T20:17:00.004+08:00

With 1st of July drawing near, I'm filled with mixed emotions.
I really don't know what I should expect.. will it be a success? or will it be a failure which then leads to an eternal goodbye?
i know the model thing to do now is to ignore this fear that i have inside of me that's tugging me even more often as the date gets closer,
but can i?

i really can't imagine what it will be like.
i really can't.

I know the time will come,
it's only sooner or later, but can it come later, please?

I really don't know what to expect..
I just want all to be well..

sigh, shall continue later.
gotta settle PSLC things.

okay, back.
Anyway, it's funny how time actually flies when you don't bother noticing it.
It's already the end of june holidays, and everyone is talking about homework and more homework.
I should really be finishing up my homework now, what am i doing here man?

one : no mood.

I really really feel that i deserve one tight slight across the face,
for slacking right now.
there are so many people in this world working their butts off for their goals,
me?

just blog and get nothing out of it.
cut the crap about getting better at english,
this isn't even standard english.

I'm not tired, really.
Not psychologically, not mentally.

I just feel so ashamed of myself.

I want to be stick thin.
I need to be stick thin.
if not i will never be able to lift my head up.

2008-06-18T19:33:00.002+08:00

as i look at some seniors blogs, i got kinda curious, what's gonna be like the same time, next year?

i know it's kinda stupid that im starting to think, cos for one:
1) will i even make it across the bridge?
2) will i still be me?
3) will everything still be the same?

obviously no for all 3.
well, okay fine.
maybe if i appeal..... i may still get to cross the bridge.
but judging from my results now?
-snorts-
fat hope.

one of the blogs i read made jc life so cool.
pasting random notes in lockers, etc. etc.

is it really so cool?
then on another note,

i just heard some jc people complaining:
"aiyoh, if i know jc so tough, might as well go poly."

so what will it be?

2008-06-18T11:39:00.001+08:00

and that passion is reignited (:

having a really bad flu. dunno whether going for training tmr. TA training starting in july. block tests in july. PSLC in july. everything in july HELP!

malay eoys in august. malay oral olevel in august. ndp preview in august. less things in august =D

byebye.

2008-06-17T10:17:00.003+08:00

Just had a really really nice talk with ryan (:
it's really really comforting to just blab all my very very messed up thoughts in my head to him, and somehow, as the discussion goes on, my head gets clearer, the picture gets clearer, everything gets better.

I really don't know why, but i always like to think deep once in awhile. Questioning the simplest things on earth, like why am I me? Why am I looking through my eyes to see the world? What will it be like if i looked through another's perspective? Why can't we jump from person to person.

It really gets confusing, really. Today I questioned love. And yes, after the discussion, we both agree that love is underrated.

Think of the times you told someone you love them, but do you really? Not trying to be cynical here, but think about what love is. Can you give up your life for him/her? I'm not trying to parallel love to being able to give up your life for another, but point is, what is love?

If one doesn't even know what love is, how then, can they say the love another?

Right now, I find it hard to love anyone other than my family, and my 2 really really close friends. Well, of course it's mel and leen. How did I know I love them? 'Cause I know I can't afford to lose them. And to me, love is when I can't afford to lose that person in my life.

So there it goes, love comes in different definitions, to different people. Maybe that explains why couples go on fighting and squibbling about whether their other half loves them. Cause in a simple fact, everyone loves differently and views love differently.

Not denying, I am on bad terms with one of my close friend. And what happens? I find myself checking her blog every single time I use the comp[everyday] and sometimes even 2/3 times a day all because I'm worried about her. I ask others about her well-being. I think of her when I'm out with my friends, wondering if I should ask her to join the fun. To me, this is love. Because I really want the best I can give to her, and like my brother analysed, I'm having trouble getting away from her. I can't let go.

So, what is your definition of love?
Have you underrated love?

I know I haven't, though i used to underrate love.

Maybe that's why, I find it so hard to love anyone now.

2008-06-16T20:39:00.001+08:00

2008-06-16T19:18:00.002+08:00

everyone is asking me the same old thing.
why am i so mean to you?
hmm.
i really don't know.

maybe it's because i don't dare to give my all ever again.
maybe it's because i dont dare to ever rely on anyone other than myself again.

you are the only one whom i've ever met that's almost near perfection.

i know i will regret for life if i drive you away one day.

but i just can't allow myself to fall so deep ever again.
i don't wanna go through anything like the "human zombie" ever again.

i think i built a wall.
a big solid hard wall,
that no one has really tore down yet.

sigh:/

i wanna give my all, but how to?

2008-06-16T07:52:00.001+08:00

YO PEOPLE! :D
hahaha
june camp is over!
well, i must certainly say that im VERY VERY RELIEVED [i was really nervous, sorry D:]
but im also VERYVERY SAD ):
cos it's the last camp for batch08

during camp, i certainly learnt alot.
of course, i din learn mind over body like other camps,
but more of how hard it is to be a mentor.
how hard do we push them, so that they will learn,
but where do we draw the line?

father's day yesterday.
hurray (:

okay, thats all, ta (:

2008-06-12T21:32:00.002+08:00

thank you for fulfiling another one of those fantasies that pisces people tend to daydream about (:

that moment you found me,
time stopped. (:

2008-06-12T14:21:00.001+08:00

也不晓得为何自己在哭，
为什么眼泪一直不停的流。

原来欺骗你，是如此的容易。
原来一个人到处走，是如此的寂寞。

原来你也跟别人没什么不同。

原来，
原来，

原来这世界，
就是这样。

2008-06-12T13:06:00.000+08:00

Jee +17] 202 WVHS I shall learn to let go. to give up... says:
lol!!
Jee +17] 202 WVHS I shall learn to let go. to give up... says:
u leh
louisa(; says:
hahaha
louisa(; says:
im married
louisa(; says:
TO MY RACKET!!!!!!
Jee +17] 202 WVHS I shall learn to let go. to give up... says:
lol??????????????
louisa(; says:
LOLLLLLLLLL XD
Jee +17] 202 WVHS I shall learn to let go. to give up... says:
wth
louisa(; says:
my racket gives me all the happiness in the world
Jee +17] 202 WVHS I shall learn to let go. to give up... says:
..........

TALK ABOUT LOVE! :D
i love my racket :D

2008-06-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

baked cookies today!
(cue: drool everyone, drool)

IT TURNED OUT TASTY :D
daddy ate almost the whole jar =O

friend finished all within half a day! =O

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

okay, BYEBYE :D

[oh gosh, the whole world is falling in love all over again. love's a season eh? HAHAHAHA.]

it's better to love, than to be loved.

2008-06-11T20:04:00.001+08:00

ds, sorry!
i couldnt upload ur blogskin!
some script error :/

Fall back
Take a look at me
And you'll see I'm for real
I feel what only I can feel
And if that don't appeal to you
Let me know
And I'll go
'Cuz I flow
Better when my colors show
And that's the way it has to be
Honestly
'Cuz creativity could never bloom
In my room
I'd throw it all away before I lie
So don't call me with a compromise
Hang up the phone
I've got a backbone stronger than yours
La la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la

[chorus]
If you're trying to turn me into someone else
Its easy to see I'm not down with that
I'm not nobody's fool
If you're trying to turn me into something else
I've seen enough and I'm over that
I'm not nobody's fool
If you wanna bring me down
Go ahead and try
Go ahead and try

You don't know
You think you know me like yourself
But I fear
That you're only telling me what I wanna hear
But do you give a damn
Understand
That I can't not be what I am
I'm not the milk and cheerios in your spoon
Its not a simple hearing but not so soon
I might've fallen for that when I was fourteen
In a little more dream
But its amazing what a couple can mean
La la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la

[chorus]

Go ahead and try
Try and look me in the eye
But you'll never see inside
Until you realize, realize
Things are trying to settle down
Just try to figure out
Exactly what I'm about
If its with or without you
I don't need you doubting me

[chorus]

La la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la

Would you be laughing out loud
If I played to my own crowd
Try

once again, if ur observant enough
it's the lyrics of my blog bg song.

2008-06-11T08:27:00.003+08:00

5 secs ago i wanted to post that i lost my sleeping bag.

but i found it! 4 secs ago :D
(1 sec of reaction time *cough*)

hurray

am going away for camp!

byebye :D

K4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D
K4 105!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D
k4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE K4 :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

2008-06-10T08:54:00.002+08:00

As the footsteps of our life gets faster, what remains the same?
More or less, nothing for me.
Not even myself.

It's funny how i find myself changing so quickly, so rapidly.
It's like a silent movie, flashing pass my eyes.

Almost half a year has gone by, what then lies ahead of the other half?
I can safely say: Dread.

Yes, I dread the next coming half a year.
Especially with olvls and eoys.
I dread it to the last strand of my hair.
But the thing that keeps me going is: Can I stop it? No.

Maybe if I was given a choice to choose a superpower, I would choose to manipulate time.

Just, think.
If you can manipulate time,
1) Change past mistakes
2) Make history different (but point is, why?)
3) See the future, and change it if it's bad cos history affects future.
4) Make time be still, and keep the beauty of life.

Rocks, eh?

"The secret ingredient is: Nothing."

It's easy to say that we are empowered within us, to be far greater than anything/anyone we are now.
But, are we?
How do I find the strength from within?

Just confused,
me.

2008-06-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

lalalala.

again, the thought resurfaces to close down this stupid blog :D

desheng, i'll upload your skin tmr!! PROMISE!

2008-06-07T18:49:00.002+08:00

sigh,
i took a gamble,
but i lost.

and you're my umbrealla.
and you're my falling cushion.
and you're that angel in my life.

thank you for holding up the sky for me when it all crumpled on me.
i know you're tired, i know you're scared, as scared as me, or even more scared than me,
but you still gave me the reassurance i need,
the protection i need,

i'm won over.

2008-06-07T12:07:00.002+08:00

THE GUY'S RULES
1. Men are NOT mind readers.
[absolutely agree, cos guys are too dumb to be one :D ]

1. Shopping is NOT a sport
And no, we are never going to think of it that way
[hahaha, neither do i think shopping is a sport. :D ]

1. Crying is blackmail.
[obviously it's a blackmail, but so what? it's a special patent right for girls :D jealous? ]

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!
[sad thing is, most of the times, saying it doesn't work too. cause the "highly-intelligent" male sub-species will interprete it in a wrong way, so what's the point?!]

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question
[Yes, i understand that your intelligence only allow you to have the vocabulary of "yes" and "no". oh sigh, i do pity you so. :D ]

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
[Agreed! Point is, usually, those solutions are more or less unfeasible!]

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem. see a doctor.
[If you're stupid enough to have a headache for 3days continuous and still not see a doctor, then well, maybe u really are stupid]

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.
[Haha, history is important to us. And so is what has ONCE BEEN SAID.]

1. If you won't dress like Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.
[Just admit it, it's cause no many can act like soap oprea guys. Quite hard i guess, with the vocab of only two words. oh wait, 3, plus the name :D ]

1. If you think you are fat, don't ask us. you probably are.
[True, though i make this mistake day after day :D it's the comfort that girls want. the reasssurance. ]

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other way.
[HAHAHA. funny :D]

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
[True.]

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
[?]

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
[Cause you're MCPs (:]

1. ALL men see in only 16 colours, like Windows defaults settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit not a colours. pumpkin is also a fruit. we have no idea what mauve is.
[the intelligence, sighhh. ]

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing". We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
[There, your eq isn't that advanced either]

1. If you ask a questions you don't want an answer to. Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape! ROUND is a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
yes i know i will end up on the couch tonight;

lazy to comment anymore xD
this is so amusing xDDDD
LOL

2008-06-07T11:43:00.002+08:00

I am wishing.
Wishing really really hard.
For them to accept.
For them to trust.
For them to empathise.

Please?

2008-06-06T21:41:00.001+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

if ur observant enough, this is the lyrics of my blog bg song.
lol.

drawn up a plan,
and i'll stick to it.

go me.

k4 TOMORROW! :D :D :D
cant waitttttt.
AT ((((:
yayyyy :D

I CANT WAIT TO SEE MY RACKETTTTTTTTTTT.
CANT WAIT TO TRY IT OUT...........

HURRAY :D
WHO WANTS TO TENNIS?
DROP A COMMENT :D
ANYONE.
ANYONE ALSO CAN.
:D :D :D

IM JUST DESPERATE TO PLAY TENNIS :D

2008-06-05T18:31:00.001+08:00

Time to stop playing, and focus back on studying and junecamp and pslc.

2008-06-02T20:22:00.006+08:00

"The way I see it, If you want to see the rainbow, you have to go through the rain."
cried many times today.
it seems so unreal.
that all these is happening.

it's as though i still feel like the next time i go for ________ i will still see your car, driving into the sch.
we will laugh and joke, then get down to serious work.

i lost that motivation to go for ____
it will be so different,
so entirely different when ur not there.

everyone cried.
even as im typing this, i feel like crying my heart out.

i've never cried in front of schmates,
but today, i did.
in front of everyone.
i cried.
so did everyone else.

the moment i read that card,
i cant help but believe that ur gonna leave.
its as though that card, will be the last momento,
the last goodbye,
the last motivation.

"The way I see it"
it's always how you start the sentence.

Thank you for the heartwarming cards.

Thank you for making me realise that tennis is more than just a sport,
it's the love and passion for tennis that keeps us going.

shit, im crying again :/

i miss you, coach.

cest le vie.

我们怎么了？
不是说好，我们永远都是好朋友吗？
为什么我们的友情，如此的脆弱？
哭了。
真的痛哭了一场。
为什么就不能做会好朋友呢？
难道我们的友情真地对你来说那么容易放的下吗？
我放不下。
我真的没那么容易放得下。

对，我弱。

就像失恋般，虽然是友情，可是原来，这比失去爱情更辛苦，心痛，伤心。

2008-06-01T18:20:00.002+08:00

SIGH.
all i can think about now are cca matters, appearance matters and so on and so forth.
went running.
and as I was running, i suddenly thought to myself:
what's the point of chasing after the perfect body?
I'm not overweight, therefore in terms of health reasons, i dun have to lose weight.

Then I found the answer, because I have this ideology that the thinner I am, the more people will love me.
And by people, I don't mean guys, or whatsoever,
I mean people on the whole.
I will havem ore friends
Be cooler,
etc. etc.

Then I thought, but the people who loves you, will always love you, no matter what shape or size you are, right?

But then, logical it may seem, I can't allow myself to fall into that thinking, it's just a lame excuse for me to stop dieting and exercising like some mad bull.

Oh well, anyway yeah, I have a new diet plan! After slacking for a month or so,
exercise twice a day = run twice a day, or run once, then do normal strengthening.
breakfast - 1 apple / 1 fruit
lunch- half of a normal serving.
dinner- depends. that morsel of rice i've always eaten, and veggies, very little meat.

hopefully this will make me thin :/
i know im being a superficial fatass by wanting to chase after that perfect figure,
but if i really get that figure, i will feel so much better about myself.
so much so much better.
so those who are close to me, please support me.
I need all your support, to watch what I'm eating when I'm too blinded by GREED.

On cca,
well, was walking back from the park.
and thought thru the past.. half a year or so.
There were times at training that I wished I could die right there and then, and never be resurrected.
I remember hating you so much, because the lazy old me couldn't bear to part with slack trainings.
I remember building a wall against you, and not wanting to open up.

But you tore every brick,
you banged through every door,
and now, I can't forget.

I can't forget this season's laughter and tears.
I can't forget all the physical training, drills, matches.
I can't forget our first match, second match, third match, so on till the last match.

You made a team out of nothing.
You made 10 players out of nothing.
You made me a better person, out of nothing.

From hating trainings, to loving trainings,
I changed.
I know someone brought about that drastic change in me,
I know it's you.

Like I've said before,
this won't end.
We won't let it end.
All 10 of us.

This is not the end.

Because in the end, I wanna be standing at the beginning with you.

2008-06-01T09:24:00.003+08:00

Everything - Michael Buble.

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to say.

And you play your card, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

----------------------------------------------------

Lovely song (:

nice melody, meaningful lyrics(:

edit:

i finally fell,

i finally fell short to the fatigue built up over the past 10weeks.

no wait, 11weeks.

for that moment, i wished i could just lay there forever and just forget every single person, every single thing in the entire world.

including myself.

everyone's tired,

everyone's asking for more and more.. im not the only one.

but in the end, i still have to get up, and keep going.

thats life.

cest le vie.

2008-05-31T19:14:00.002+08:00

no one will ever be able to replace that place u took in my heart,
where u made tennis more than just a sport, more than just a cca.

ups and downs,
we all went through it together.

this is just another down, right?
we'll get through.
i know we will.

i know we can solve it.
i know if we all work hard, we will solve it together.
all of us.
all 10 of us.

this shouldn't be it.

2008-05-31T11:31:00.003+08:00

"Believe in this world, it ain't all about looks and figure, it's about the INNER BEAUTY."

tell me about it.
if this was so, what's with all the good looking ppl getting all the good stuff?
lol.

come on, face it.
if ur born pretty, u breeze through life (:
u worry about things like: "oh godddd, i have so many ppl staring at me"
" oh godddd, is it good or bad that i get promoted so quickly?"

blahblahblah

to hell with you all pretty faces,
nvm, my next life i shall be pretty too

well,
next life.

oh yes, this is a damn suck green eye-ed jealous post of all those pretty faces out there.

to hell (:

2008-05-31T09:59:00.002+08:00

lol, im like blogging less and less.
hahahahaha

tennis spex!
yeah got into quarter finals and met some elite, and lost.
aww.

well, still sad about my racket, but yeah im in search of a new one alr.
hahaha
i need that racket (:
it's either k 4 112 or k4 105, but i gotta try it out first.
hopefully my junior is willing to let me hit a few shots with her racket to test it out (:
but the feel should rock, cos k series really give very good feel and control.
no forcing of shots needed.

maybe that will help my shoulder injury get better
ah yes, told no one about it, but my shoulder is injured.
lol.
slight strain and dislocation.
hahaha
think i forced shots too much.
hahaha

gonna start on hol homework.
ciao!

im glad everything is solved between all of us.
if taking the blame, will solve everything once and for all,
i really don't give a damn whether its me or not.
all i want is for friends to be back to friends again.
and all the bad feelings all go away.

and! thank you for the really sweet things yesterday (:
i'll remember the "as hard as rock" (;

2008-05-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

my husband died today.
im sorry that i wanted to be unfaithful towards u and get a k series racket!
but really!
im sorry ):

please come back ):
don't crack into two..
it breaks my heart to see that huge line of crack on your frame ):

and because my husband died,
i was emo the whole day.

before the match,
during the match,
after the match,

NOW.

):
thank you for braving thru the stormy times on court, and the sweet times of victory.
they say that racket and player must be one.
we're one.

and even though u've now left me,
i'll never forget that ur my first racket (:
that you endured some noob hitting playing.

thank you((((:

i love my husband (:
but he left..
and i'll take some time to move on,
and get accustomed to a new racket.

amen.

2008-05-26T18:24:00.004+08:00

nice songs =D
i like last song best =D

wahahaha how true.

2008-05-25T08:04:00.003+08:00

PAST TWO DAYS DAMN FUN :D :D :D

Tennis Gathering ' 08! (:
bbq at maplewoods.
wahahah
it was super fun xD
food was damn niceeee xD
hahahahah

but it was even better when we played cards and all those games xD
AND THE ALGORITHM MARCH! :D
hahahaha
dumb seaweed.
u took damn unlam shots of me D:

OH!
at training tow super cute lil boys came!!! :D
max is 7 xD
and zikai is 8 xD
LOLLL
was made to play against zikai.
and roar.
i felt damn bad D:
cos he's like half my age and half my height xD
LOLLL
won him. 3-0
but then i was feeling super bad hahah.

zikai is damn mischevious lah xD
LOL
he kept throwing leaves at us.
hurrhurr.

i like max :D :D :D :D
SO CUTE :D
me and bong paedophiled on him by asking him to pose for our camera! :D
hahahaha
I TOOK SHOTS OF HIM DOING BACKHAND :D :D :D :D
yayyyyyy :D :D :D
i like max!!!!! :D

oh then yesterday was TENNIS, ARENA, CDRAMA.

was out the whole day
so was dead by the time i got home xD
whaahaha .
TENNIS WITH BONG! :D
yayyyy (:
bong is niceee (:

arena was like damn exciting!!!
jason chan acted as GREEN POWER RANGER LAST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
omggggggggg.
im in love with him ;D
LOL
GO GO POWER RANGERS! :D

then later rushed back
ate dinner with verver :D
she's baking today but not for me D:
oreo cheesecake ))):

rushed back for cdrama! with ci, zong, tweema, and jo
LOL
LU QIANG WAS DAMN CUTE CAN :DDD
wt acted quite well xD
lolll
overall quite nice lah xD

oh then i saw cheryl at the bus stop!! :D
was damn excited and told her all about green ranger xD
but my bus came D:
couldnt finish my story DDD:

wahahaha.

I AM HAPPY :D

2008-05-24T08:45:00.002+08:00

i am at fault.
stop it all, 3 of you.

it's my fault that i made u unable to sleep, sorry.

it's my fault that i made him worry about her cos she was unable to sleep, sorry.

it's my fault that i put ur friendship with him in jeopardy, sorry.

对不起，这不是你们都要的一句话吗？
一切都是我的错。
是我多嘴，
是我太多管闲事。
她不交功课，关我什么事？
她的生活，我拚什么去问候？

从此，我不会再来伤害你们三人。
我答应我会保持距离，
这样我就不会伤害你们，
我就不会是千古罪人。

2008-05-21T20:24:00.001+08:00

i've got nothing to say today.

learn it!

it's fun!

2008-05-20T19:06:00.002+08:00

GO ME GO ME!
MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG !
not forgetting,
JUNE CAMP!
PSLC!

LOSING WEIGHT!

SPEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OGM OMG OMG STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss.
NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW TO WIN!?????!?!??!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i must must must msut play well for doubles
MSUT!
shoots.
i should go check my matches timings -.-

I DUN WAN 8PM AGAIN.
SIANNNNNNNNNNNN.

oh gosh oh gosh.
im like on adrenaline high!
D:

oh eileen!
CHECK YOUR EMAIL :D
feel honoured man xD
i typed such a long email for u when im so damn stressed.

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I MUST SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-19T19:43:00.001+08:00

i learnt an important lesson today
never trust anything/anyone other than yourself.

2008-05-19T10:20:00.001+08:00

BIO SIA IS D:
okay, thats about all i wanna say.
byebyepeople.

SERIOUSLY, THE WEATHER IS STEAMING HOT THESE DAYS D:
and it makes me wanna on air-con but i will feel guilty cos it'll raise the overall avg temp on earth.
oh dilemma, dilemma.

oh btw,
my pretty sis ! (:
i wanna grow up to look like her.
yay! :D

2008-05-18T08:28:00.000+08:00

我就这么，狠心地走了。
长痛不如短痛。

对不起，伤害了你。

现在的我，只想考好成绩，
做好我的本分。

gomenasai..
祝你永远幸福。

2008-05-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!
ME AND SEAWEED DOUBLES IS SEED 6?!?!?!?!?!?!
im seed 15?!?!?!?!?!?!
INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUN BELIEVE I DUN BELIEVE I DUN BELIEVE

2008-05-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

im pissed off by certain people in the world right now.
i wanted to defend the flamed group, but no, i've decided not to.
seniors, thank you for teaching me well. (:
i made a mistake in the past for being too defensive,
and now, i will not make the same mistake.

complain all you want,

but, things won't change (:

if you want the change to come, BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE.

good luck to you, that certain someone (:

may you succeed before we all graduate (: (with all my heart man)

手机关了。
你的手机，我也关了。

现在你会恨我，可是，当你找到她时，你一定会很庆幸。。。
我们换较色，
从今天开始，我会像你从前守护我，一样的守护你。
我不求什么，就求你要比现在快乐。
因为我知道，现在的你，并不快乐
我给不了的幸福，别人能给你。。。

这，就是我给你的最后温柔。

2008-05-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

posting today cos its the last day of lessons!

oh yay oh yay

TERM TWO IS OVER!

but sad also cos its my last term in my sch

im gonna miss seaweed so mcuh when she goes ):

sigh.. come back soon alright u dumbdumb.

we must win them again!!!! :D

I WILL MISS YOU LOADS AND LOADS!

:D :D :D

oh RMEMEBER MY SOUVENIRS :D

yay i loveeeeee collecting souvenirs :D :D :D

byebye everyone (:

ANGSEAWEEEDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COME BACK SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i shall count down (((:

5 more days! D:

2008-05-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

ohleh ohleh.
i will survive!
oh yeah~
i will survive!

okay,
ONE MORE DAY TO GO
and its the SABBATICALS :D

sometimes, dun u just hate the internet?
teachers can post homework to u even though they dun get to see you ):

roar..

LAST YEAR!

come to think of it,
i will miss ny loads when i graduate.

few more months to stepping down,
few more months to graduation.

gosh, will i miss this place?

i think so.

and today i just realised mrs wong is a really nice teacher (:
i regret no making the effort to know her better when i had the chance to..
well, all's not lost!
i'll make the best of these few months in ny to enjoy the familiarity (:

AND DUMB SEAWEED IS GOING TO THROW ME ALONE IN TRAINING ):
COS SHES GOING TO SUNNY ISLAND WITH NICE BEACHES AND SEA )))):

for TWO TRAININGS ):

im sad ):

im really really sad ):

seaweed,
ALL YOUR FAULT!

you better get me nice nice souvenirs 8D

oh, on a sadder note,
all our marks for CA1 are out.

and holy crap,
gone are those glorious days with msg near 1.00
with the first digit of your msg starting with 1.
the magical number 1.

here are the dark, gloomy, depressed days,
where you see the whole world getting that magical precious 1.
and you?

you look down at the sheet of paper,
and go "wow, wow, wow" at every mark down the row.

and right at the row with your name,
you go: well, for me it's speechless.

UTTER DISAPPOINTMENT.

i swear im gonna own CA2 if it kills me to.

this is the lousiest msg i've gotten in my entire life in sec sch.

and pls, i know you all are being kind to me and just wanna cheer me up and comfort me,
but no,
i dun think a msg of below 2.5 is good.

an msg of below 1.5, yes.

but no,
not below 2.5.

CA2,
i'll OWN YOU.

block tests 2,
no matter how HARD ppl say you will be,
i'll be like the diamond and BREAKTHROUGH YOU.

go everyone!

2008-05-12T18:58:00.003+08:00

MALAY PRELIM ORAL IS OVER! :D

im sorry, i deleted all my past posts!

gomenasai, i just hate my past memories (:

such a nice song (:
hahahahaha!

i think i suck.
cos im damn superifical.
hurrhurrhurr.

i must lose more weight (: