With 1st of July drawing near, I'm filled with mixed emotions. I really don't know what I should expect.. will it be a success? or will it be a failure which then leads to an eternal goodbye? i know the model thing to do now is to ignore this fear that i have inside of me that's tugging me even more often as the date gets closer, but can i?
i really can't imagine what it will be like. i really can't.
I know the time will come, it's only sooner or later, but can it come later, please?
I really don't know what to expect.. I just want all to be well..
okay, back. Anyway, it's funny how time actually flies when you don't bother noticing it. It's already the end of june holidays, and everyone is talking about homework and more homework. I should really be finishing up my homework now, what am i doing here man?
one : no mood.
I really really feel that i deserve one tight slight across the face, for slacking right now. there are so many people in this world working their butts off for their goals, me?
just blog and get nothing out of it. cut the crap about getting better at english, this isn't even standard english.
I'm not tired, really. Not psychologically, not mentally.
I just feel so ashamed of myself.
I want to be stick thin. I need to be stick thin. if not i will never be able to lift my head up.
LOST
VIVALOKA;
rainn
rainn-heavily@hotmail.com PIANO;TENNIS;RUNNING;
and if you really hate me, tell me.
&IWISH;
everyone to be happy;
less tears, more smiles for all;
be simple;
distinction in grade6 piano;
distinction in grade5 theory;
MSG OF ONE POINT ZERO :D
THESONG;
SHESAYS;
GET YOUR BUTT OFF THE COMP YOU LAZY GIRL. IF YOU WANT YOUR 1.00, WORK FOR IT.
