SIGH. all i can think about now are cca matters, appearance matters and so on and so forth. went running. and as I was running, i suddenly thought to myself: what's the point of chasing after the perfect body? I'm not overweight, therefore in terms of health reasons, i dun have to lose weight.
Then I found the answer, because I have this ideology that the thinner I am, the more people will love me. And by people, I don't mean guys, or whatsoever, I mean people on the whole. I will havem ore friends Be cooler, etc. etc.
Then I thought, but the people who loves you, will always love you, no matter what shape or size you are, right?
But then, logical it may seem, I can't allow myself to fall into that thinking, it's just a lame excuse for me to stop dieting and exercising like some mad bull.
Oh well, anyway yeah, I have a new diet plan! After slacking for a month or so, exercise twice a day = run twice a day, or run once, then do normal strengthening. breakfast - 1 apple / 1 fruit lunch- half of a normal serving. dinner- depends. that morsel of rice i've always eaten, and veggies, very little meat.
hopefully this will make me thin :/ i know im being a superficial fatass by wanting to chase after that perfect figure, but if i really get that figure, i will feel so much better about myself. so much so much better. so those who are close to me, please support me. I need all your support, to watch what I'm eating when I'm too blinded by GREED.
On cca, well, was walking back from the park. and thought thru the past.. half a year or so. There were times at training that I wished I could die right there and then, and never be resurrected. I remember hating you so much, because the lazy old me couldn't bear to part with slack trainings. I remember building a wall against you, and not wanting to open up.
But you tore every brick, you banged through every door, and now, I can't forget.
I can't forget this season's laughter and tears. I can't forget all the physical training, drills, matches. I can't forget our first match, second match, third match, so on till the last match.
You made a team out of nothing. You made 10 players out of nothing. You made me a better person, out of nothing.
From hating trainings, to loving trainings, I changed. I know someone brought about that drastic change in me, I know it's you.
Like I've said before, this won't end. We won't let it end. All 10 of us.
This is not the end.
Because in the end, I wanna be standing at the beginning with you.
LOST
VIVALOKA;
rainn
rainn-heavily@hotmail.com PIANO;TENNIS;RUNNING;
and if you really hate me, tell me.
&IWISH;
everyone to be happy;
less tears, more smiles for all;
be simple;
distinction in grade6 piano;
distinction in grade5 theory;
MSG OF ONE POINT ZERO :D
THESONG;
SHESAYS;
GET YOUR BUTT OFF THE COMP YOU LAZY GIRL. IF YOU WANT YOUR 1.00, WORK FOR IT.
