Just had a really really nice talk with ryan (: it's really really comforting to just blab all my very very messed up thoughts in my head to him, and somehow, as the discussion goes on, my head gets clearer, the picture gets clearer, everything gets better.
I really don't know why, but i always like to think deep once in awhile. Questioning the simplest things on earth, like why am I me? Why am I looking through my eyes to see the world? What will it be like if i looked through another's perspective? Why can't we jump from person to person.
It really gets confusing, really. Today I questioned love. And yes, after the discussion, we both agree that love is underrated.
Think of the times you told someone you love them, but do you really? Not trying to be cynical here, but think about what love is. Can you give up your life for him/her? I'm not trying to parallel love to being able to give up your life for another, but point is, what is love?
If one doesn't even know what love is, how then, can they say the love another?
Right now, I find it hard to love anyone other than my family, and my 2 really really close friends. Well, of course it's mel and leen. How did I know I love them? 'Cause I know I can't afford to lose them. And to me, love is when I can't afford to lose that person in my life.
So there it goes, love comes in different definitions, to different people. Maybe that explains why couples go on fighting and squibbling about whether their other half loves them. Cause in a simple fact, everyone loves differently and views love differently.
Not denying, I am on bad terms with one of my close friend. And what happens? I find myself checking her blog every single time I use the comp[everyday] and sometimes even 2/3 times a day all because I'm worried about her. I ask others about her well-being. I think of her when I'm out with my friends, wondering if I should ask her to join the fun. To me, this is love. Because I really want the best I can give to her, and like my brother analysed, I'm having trouble getting away from her. I can't let go.
So, what is your definition of love? Have you underrated love?
I know I haven't, though i used to underrate love.
Maybe that's why, I find it so hard to love anyone now.
LOST
VIVALOKA;
rainn
rainn-heavily@hotmail.com PIANO;TENNIS;RUNNING;
and if you really hate me, tell me.
&IWISH;
everyone to be happy;
less tears, more smiles for all;
be simple;
distinction in grade6 piano;
distinction in grade5 theory;
MSG OF ONE POINT ZERO :D
THESONG;
SHESAYS;
GET YOUR BUTT OFF THE COMP YOU LAZY GIRL. IF YOU WANT YOUR 1.00, WORK FOR IT.
