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Friday, June 20, 2008 ?|9:16 AM


haha, finished my june camp stuff! (:
left with chinese book review and a ton of other hw which i am not really planning to finish by hols.

anyway, hurrhurr, as I listen to Secondhand Serenade's Your Call, i start to snort at the song.
one of the lines of the lyrics goes like this: "I am born to tell you I love you."
I know it's supposed to be all sweet and all
and i can't deny that my heart will be melted by the guy who says that to me and means it,
but seriously,
i think anyone who thinks that they are born for one person,
they must be really.... emotionally weak and dependent.

I've grown to know that I don't live for anyone but myself, and a few worthy people like my family (:
im sorry if i sound cynical,
but isn't it super dumb to live for just one person?
just one person of the opposite gender?

i don't deny that if i'm attached, maybe i will become super dependent on that person,
but seriously, is it really worth it?

I don't really beleive i am born just to live with another person.
Rather, i think of such love as a gift, a bonus from heaven.
I can live very happily with this love,
and I can also live without it.

everytime i see some friends around me who make love their whole world, it makes me question myself:
do i want to be like them?

i don't think i want to.
it's so highly dangerous.

why should your life, something so sacred a gift to us, to be dependent on this other external person?

maybe i'm just being arrogant, but i really don't know.
but i don't think losing one person will make another die..
i mean, when one door closes, another door opens.
it's just a matter of time.

even so, life has so many more beautiful things for us to experience.
other beautiful things like kinship, friendship, etc.

but maybe im just too fortunate now,
and therefore i'm saying all this crap.

just a random thought of mine. x)


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